ohmygoshhh):
i feel so demoralised by my english marks.
i cant believe she made it a graded assignment
when its our first time.
our previous compres,
sadly, hasn't made it back to our hands.
so i had no idea how to answer the certain type
of questions,no idea how to do it correctly.
did she ever teach us the right way?
did she show us model answers?
not until today.
until we got our totally depressing marks.
like, only 5 people passed.
with a highest score of 20,
and the second highest of 15.
even they aren't great marks.
when i showed my father my paper,
did he offer any words of encouragement?
no.
instead he reprimanded me and
brought my spirits down lower.
he even threatened to make me quit netball.
he knows how important netball is to me.
and being my father, he should know
the way i go.
when i went back to my room,
i had to let it all out.
everthing that i had kept bottled up inside of me
was carrying me down.
the gigantic rock on my chest had to be removed.
so, i finally did it.
my tears showed my fustration at myself and at others,
my anger and my sadness.
why can't i do well?
goshhhhh, i hate myself for this.